I’m 15 and lost my mum

My mum died 3 weeks ago she was fighting inlnesses for along time she had meningitis and nearly passed but some how she made it after about a year she was in constant pain that wasn't cured and 4 months ago she went to hospital and I haven't  seen her since I. couldn't have even seen her last smile I felt broken I value my mums life over mine i wish I could have taken the pain away recently I have been very bad I'm very depressed  I have a 7 year old sister I try to be strong for her but my mum was my world and now she's gone and if there's no world anymore I should be gone to I wish I could have been a better son 4 months she was alive in hospital and I couldn't see her I begged each day and the week I was going to see her was the week she passed I see no point to life now everything I did and was going to become was for her I feel like my life is ruined and there is no point of it.

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  • Hi my man I'm sorry for what happened  I can empathise with you take grief your way there is no right way and nothing that even your next closest loved one and say that can help I lost my mum at 14 to bowl cancer life has changed I have a beautiful picture of her by my bed and talk to her every night like you my mum was or let me rephrase that is my world it took some time the pain won't go but you'll learn to live with it however Im back on cancer chat today because 2 months ago I lost my dad grandma,grandpa and aunt and I can't tell you how broken I feel go on with your life never forget them and grieve I'm writing this crying because I don't know how to feel I'm living with my beautiful gran and grandpa from my mums side now I'm 16 and studying hard to be a doctor mum always wanted me to become one but remember your family won't mind no matter what you become they will be happy I also feel broken like you I don't know what's the point of life I did have a sybling but sadly she was still born I feel unlucky but I know there watching me and ather people might have it the same way 

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  • Hi my man I'm sorry for what happened  I can empathise with you take grief your way there is no right way and nothing that even your next closest loved one and say that can help I lost my mum at 14 to bowl cancer life has changed I have a beautiful picture of her by my bed and talk to her every night like you my mum was or let me rephrase that is my world it took some time the pain won't go but you'll learn to live with it however Im back on cancer chat today because 2 months ago I lost my dad grandma,grandpa and aunt and I can't tell you how broken I feel go on with your life never forget them and grieve I'm writing this crying because I don't know how to feel I'm living with my beautiful gran and grandpa from my mums side now I'm 16 and studying hard to be a doctor mum always wanted me to become one but remember your family won't mind no matter what you become they will be happy I also feel broken like you I don't know what's the point of life I did have a sybling but sadly she was still born I feel unlucky but I know there watching me and ather people might have it the same way 

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