My mum died 3 weeks ago she was fighting inlnesses for along time she had meningitis and nearly passed but some how she made it after about a year she was in constant pain that wasn't cured and 4 months ago she went to hospital and I haven't seen her since I. couldn't have even seen her last smile I felt broken I value my mums life over mine i wish I could have taken the pain away recently I have been very bad I'm very depressed I have a 7 year old sister I try to be strong for her but my mum was my world and now she's gone and if there's no world anymore I should be gone to I wish I could have been a better son 4 months she was alive in hospital and I couldn't see her I begged each day and the week I was going to see her was the week she passed I see no point to life now everything I did and was going to become was for her I feel like my life is ruined and there is no point of it.