Its not selfish most don't want to be watched dying, I tried to stay with my mum and she waved me out of her room like get going cos I am, if you know what I mean. We talked before she was to ill to answer me and told me its personal probably like being watched on the loo. I take comfort in her not wanting me to see and possibly being traumatised by it. I watched cancer take so much of her away, her strength, fight and a truck load of weight but her spirit and sparkly eyes were there and her wit and even as an adult my mum protected me.

Its not selfish most don't want to be watched dying, I tried to stay with my mum and she waved me out of her room like get going cos I am, if you know what I mean. We talked before she was to ill to answer me and told me its personal probably like being watched on the loo. I take comfort in her not wanting me to see and possibly being traumatised by it. I watched cancer take so much of her away, her strength, fight and a truck load of weight but her spirit and sparkly eyes were there and her wit and even as an adult my mum protected me.