No you’re not Trace.  You have to do what is right for you and you have already said your goodbyes and told him you love him, he knows that.  Many people choose to go on their own so don’t feel guilty about not being there.  I was unable to be with dad when we lost him at 5am on 8 June but I saw him on the Saturday when he had entered the dying phase.  He showed very little signs that he knew I was there until I held his hand, said goodbye and told him we all loved him and he gave my hand a small squeeze.  This has to be better than seeing them taking their last breath and I did this too with my mum.

i went to see my dad in the undertakers and said my goodbyes to him again then.  I don’t feel that I have let him or myself down.  Just do what is right for you.  Sending love and support x

Thank you xx

Thank you xx