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Lost my mum to cancer

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Hi everyone, On April 13th 2020 my mum sadly passed away from breast cancer, she was only 50 and i feel completely broken. I have good days and bad days and i miss her a lot. I'm 17 and It's just me and my dad in the house, When she passed I couldn't come home for 2 nights and stayed at my brothers, I couldn't bare to come home. My mum was my best friend and i regret not spending enough time with her. I have dreams that she's still here but bad dreams, it's like my dream self knows that my mum passed so it's more like a nightmare. most mornings i wake up thinking that my mums death was a nightmare and get that nice relief for 2 seconds before reality hits me. My mum was always the person i could truly count on and now that she's not here i feel so lost. My mum always worried about me and how i'd be if she passed, but if i'm like her i'll remain strong, It's just so hard because she wanted to do so many things and see so many things. I just don't know what to do from now on and i'm just needing a bit of help. 

Thank you for taking the time to read this :) Take care

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    Hi there ...

    So so sorry your going through this heartbraking time at the moment... be kind to yourself, as this first year is a a raw year .. lots of "this time last year"  and that's the price we pay having a loving parent .. 

    I remember it well .. but now your mum lives in your heart .. you are half of her, you can take her with you on your journey through life... she will see through you eyes .. 

    Cancer is so crule ... so try and push the last painful memories away .. and remember that mum that was pre cancer .. the mum who brought you up .. there's no easy way round grief .. it's trying to balance feelings, so feelings come out.. but not 24/7 ... sending you a vertual hug... Chrissie x

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    I have also just lost my Mum to cancer...last Saturday infact, 23rd May 2020. I am 42 years old, my Mum was 62  and we were very, very close.  I have had to live at home to help my Dad especially in the care of my younger sister who is disabled. 

    Don't know if I can help you but I do know exactly how you feel..Mum was suffering so much that we couldn't wish her back. But there is such a void in our lives!

    The future for me looks increasingly bleak as I have to take on her cares.

    We had the funeral on Wednesday and that did give me some closure of sorts. Grief comes over me in waves sometimes. 

    Take care....you're not alone! 

     

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    Hi

    reading through these posts,we can all see ourselves. The pain we feel the loss we share , the endless despair. Is there some comfort in that,that we all feel the sMe. No one can ever prepare us for the loss of our mums, until it happens we don't want to accept it even might. I lost my wonderful mum in April to bowel cancer. It rings true you wake up and as soon as you do it all starts realing away. It's horrid,all I can add is hang on in there. We don't know what else is ahead for our lives,so having had our mums in the first place was a blessing. Be proud of who you are, you are because she was, no one will ever change that. Take care everyone,dig deep. Xxxxx

    jayne

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