Hello Gilly. I am so sorry to read this message. My Mum is very ill in hospital and i am searching stories, how will i get through it? I have children but i genuinley think i will shut down when she is gone. It is giving me terrible anxiety and i simply feel like she has already gone. The reason i have responded is they think the same is happening to my mum and i just feel so upset reading that someone else is going through it. I can imagine that you are feeling alone, because nobody could ever match that bond that you had. She was your safety blanket, she was your "pick me up", only her really knew you, i honestly feel your pain. I am preparing in my head on how to get through it but you, you poor thing didn't get that chance. Cry when you need too, please see your doctor if it gets too much, don't ever give up. You are your mothers legacy. Make her proud like you always did and one day you will meet her again. X

Hi both,

My Mum had brain mets from secondary breast cancer and died just a few days ago. We found out she had just a few months to life after an original alright prognosis. I'm only 30, she was early 50s and I have two young kids (both under 5). 
 

She was my best friend and I spoke to her every single day. The last few months I've seen her every day too. Quite honestly I thought I'd be unable to even get out of bed when she passed away but I'm kind of on autopilot I guess. I'm not even sure if it's just shock/denial or whether all the conversations we had together in anticipation are getting me through. 
 

it just feels surreal, and whilst this is probably of not help at all, I just wanted you to know I'm going through something similar and you're not alone. X

Sorry for my delay in replying to you, I've been in hospital, but thankfully much better now. 
 

I'm so sorry to hear you're going through the same thing it's so awful and there really are no words but I'm here if you ever want to talk about it. You're not alone and I'm finding talking to others is really helping.

i miss mum so much, but I'm remembering more of the good times than the end right now and that is keeping me going for my little one. Sending love xx

hi , so my mum was diagnosed with lung cancer which had spread to her brain (brain mets) 2 months ago she is 80 years old.

from initially having no symptoms to one day appearing confused and struggling with speech.

its now been about 2 months and she is in a nursing home and i have to watch her getting more poorly by the day , its heart breaking they have stopped all her meds apart from steroids (Dex) and morphine for when she is in pain , im lucky now if i get a word out of her as she is really struggling with her speech and she sleeps a lot which is expected and always appears drowsy. i cant fault the palliative care team there doing an amazing job.

i just want my mum back , and at the same time i hate to see her struggle