Hi everyone,

This is my first post. I lost my mum to lung cancer last Friday (31st Jan). She was only diagnosed in October and died 115 days later. It was awful as I watched someone who was usually so independent and feisty become skin and bones and unable to do anything for herself. Her death was a mixture of relief that she was no longer in pain, shock at how fast she went, and utter sadness.

The bit I'm not sure if I'm over reacting about is my partner. He doesn't live with me but stays over most nights when he doesn't have his daughter. He is a bit of a workaholic and doesn't like having days off unless it's booked holiday.

he came over Friday night and spent the weekend with me. He had started with a cold on the Thursday. He went to work Monday and then because he felt poorly with his cold he didn't come over for the rest of the week. He still went to work.

I just feel so let down that during the worst week of my life he wasn't there. I didn't ask him to take time off from work but I'm upset that he couldn't have come over one evening during the week? It'd have been nice to have some company, especially after going to the funeral directors and then viewing my mums body. He's got his daughter this weekend so I haven't seen him this weekend either.

He just said he's been unwell and can't have time off work sick (he can but just won't). 

I don't know if my grief is skewing my viewpoint or if I've got a valid point.

I miss my mum so much and am just numb. My dad and I spent all of January caring for her in and out of hospital and when she finally went into the hospice. Mentally and emotionally I am broken.