O bless you goodness your all having a bad time i hope your dad pulls through this flipping rotton disease the oncolygists say weeks and people can live for years or vice versa pancreas is about worst we get aches and pains just think its age then bang its cancer . I had a prostrate biopsie not long ago ended up with sepsis it took my partner to but it was quick less than two days after her majore stroke caused by cancer i was releived that she would die paralysed in pain in probably a month if you ring your local hospice they have bereavment councilers they deal with death every day an hour a week may just keep you sane .griefs g very lonely road because no one else loved your mum more except your dad but you cant support him very well if your struggling with emotional exhaustion of caurse its your choise .but .ifound who looks after the carrer so see if you can get out for walks in the park just a walk away from it all will help i lost mum and dad some years ago but seems like yesterd since i lost my liz  only just over a year but i got vertualy no support and it took its toll on me so just you look after yourself to once again sorry we are all rooting for your dad you dont know us but your on here and we understand what your going through keep letting us know how its all going just chatting may stop you from self destructing your in this club that no one wants to be in but glad we are .best wishs you will be getting replys ime sure from people going throe or been throe and it helps knowing your not alone .paul