My mother passed away last week, less than a month after being diagnosed with mesothelioma. Like many other types of cancer, mesothelioma is cruel and aggressive. It was awful to see our wife, mother and grandmother in so much pain and discomfort, gradually losing her co-ordination, ability to speak and vision as this awful cancer took hold. She was moved to a palliative care centre, where we were with her all the time until she passed.
She has been laid to rest, and people have been so supportive. We are still reeling though, and are heartbroken. Emotions are varied as we try and make sense of this. I live abroad but came over as soon as I heard the diagnosis. Now I find myself thinking of the things that occupied my mind before, and thinking that they are pointless. This is particularly the case when I am with my dad, who is so lost at the moment. I can't even think of getting on a plane back to my old life atm and with my dad as he is. I just wish that my mum was back.
I had a chat with my boss (I work abroad), and as we were going through the bereavement leave provisions and a possible phased return to work I was just thinking that it was all so irrelevant. At the moment I can't conceive of going back to work as I deal with my grief, and my father's grief too. I could leave my job, as I've managed to save enough for a sabbatical. At the same time, I've read that people shouldn't make big decisions as they are grieving. Does anyone have any advice, or experience of this?
