Hi all. I would just like to introduce myself . I lost my husband nearly 2 years ago to this horrible disease .He was my second husband, the first also i lost to cancer 13 years ago. I have 2 wonderful daughters from my first husband, but they have got their own familys now. Anyway i feel totaly lost without my second husband, and all i seem to do is work to take my mind off things. Ive just had an operation ( not cancer),and it has come back all the memories etc like a bolt out of the blue. I have tried to get counciling but that is easier said than done. Feeling very lost and lonely. I dont want to keep telling my friends and family as they will get maybe fed up ,and they think im just getting on ok,if only they knew !. Any advise please?.I would be grateful just to talk to someone who is going through or has gone through this horrible feeling. Just want to be with him,end of. Thanks for reading.Sarah.