I have never posted on a forum ever but at the moment feel lost ,alone and afraid. I lost the best mum in the world very suddenly in October and I feel as if a part of myself has gone also. She was the strongest most feisty lady you would ever meet, she was 87 when she passed away and as bright as a button. The last few weeks of her life where spent in the hospital joking till the very end with all of her family not leaving her side for a minute, we saw her slowly lose herself and the fear and pain she went through towards the end, I will never forget. My pain now missing mum seems to be getting worse, I had to go back to work straight away and carry on as normal but everything seems pointless without her , just miss ringing her every night. My depression and grief has effected my ability to cope at work and I have just lost my job because of my lack of motivation everything seems pointless! I just want to be able to hear her voice just for a moment, I spend most of my nights awake and crying when the kids are in bed. I am a 50 year old woman who needs her mum and feel totally hopeless. Can't see a light at the end of the tunnel.
