It's been 4 weeks tomorrow since James died . I still can't believe he's not coming back, can't stop crying everyday, Christmas day tomorrow I don't feel I can get through it even for the grandkids even when I see them it reminds me of James.
I don’t think anyone could blame you if you weren’t able to put on a brave face, what with you losing James only a matter of weeks ago xx
Putting on a brave face will put a lot of pressure on you.....it would be completely understandable if you weren’t feeling strong enough tomorrow and if you had some wobbly moments xx I’m sure your family will understand this (you could even tell them that you’ll do your best to join in the festive cheer however it might not be possible because you’re missing James...xx).
Thank you for your reply, the last few days have seemed so much worse, just not stop crying just don't want to make it a horrible day for the grandkids they're only 2½ and 4½.
Just struggling so much, broken now missing James, knowing I'll never see him again, realisation I guess it's tearing me apart , feeling not wanting to go on. I know I can't be with him but I can't be without him x
So sorry its the hardest thing we ever go through you have my deepest sympathys just try and hold on till you get your strengh back its exhausting i know but you will .paul
