I'm so sorry about your dad Sparkle but I'm glad you were able to see him before he passed.

Many of our members will know how difficult this will be for you at the moment having been in similar situations themselves and hopefully some of them will be along soon to offer their support and advice.

Try and take things one day at a time and remember that we are always here if you need us.

Kind regards, 

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

Thank you for taking the time to respond. It means a lot. 

Hi Sparkle123, I am very sorry to hear about the loss of your dad. There are no words. I lost my beautiful mum on 26th September, I understand your sadness. Although all our family were with mum at home, we left the room for dad to have some time alone with her and she passed away about 10 minutes later, I think maybe she waited for us all to leave, maybe it was right just to be with your soul-mate or she thought it would break us, to see her last moment, I don't know. 

I think it's ok to curl up in a ball, it's all so raw and I felt numb too, doesn't feel real or sink in. Don't feel you have to be so strong, that is hard, I lean on my husband, my dad and rest of the family, you have to. 

Life feels so cruel sometimes, be kind to yourself, a day at a time

Sincere condolences x

My heart goes out to you and your family at this horrible time. I remember feeling numb when my mum died.....loosing a loved one is heartbreaking......take care and be gentle on yourself......you will get strength from your family.......so so sorry xxxxx