Hi, everyone
I made this account because I felt like I need to speak to people that may understand what I am going through.
I am 26 years old and my mum was 58 and she was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer last year 25th August 2017. She passed away on July 23rd 2018 at 12:58 am. I feel like I have lost my best friend and I feel like it’s hitting me each day of the shock that my mum has gone. Her cancer came out of no where it just started off as a cough and they she went in hospital and they just told her the worst. She had chemotherapy, she lost her hair, she was getting weaker and weaker by the second to the point she could not breath.
I went to every appointment she had and I did everything for her. The week she passed it was my daughters birthday and I took my daughter to Alton towers and my sister told me mum was being rushed in to hospital. I was in shock but there was nothing I could do. My sister said mums ok don’t panic enjoy your daughters birthday. I told my mum I would come see her on Monday in hospital and this is where the story changed.
I went to sleep and woke up crying but i didn’t no why I just felt sad and I said randomly “ I hope my mum is okay”. Then I looked at my phone at 1:30am and my mum rang me at 12:53am twice but I missed her call. I rang her back twice no answer back. I was worried cause my mum NEVER rings me at that time. Then I got the worst call ever at 5:30 in the morning hospital rang me saying my mum has passed away. My heart broke in to pieces and what makes it worse I am pregnant with her 6th grandchild and the day she passed she was meant to come to my first scan. Also on the day she passed it was my sisters wedding anniversary.
This year has not been the best for me and my sisters and after all of that my dad is diagnosed with dementia.
I just really miss my mum so much and im only so young to be going through this all. I don’t no how I’m going to cope with me still needing my mum. I love her so much.
Thanks for listening