Hi everyone who has lost a dear loved one to this horrible and selfish disease.My wife of 26 years died on the 3rd April this year to metastatic cancer .We knew from January this of a tumor and she was told it was inoperable and chemo or radiotherapy could be an option so after many visits to different hospitals being told one thing or another we were no further forward.Then one night she vomited and she was admitted to hospital for an operation to unblock her bowels,the next day she rang me to ask to come in early as the doctor needed to see us.Bang! she told us that Andrea my 49 year old princess had 6/8 weeks left and the pancreatic tumour was incurable, she was eventually given a hospice bed she was OK but that was me looking at Andrea who was not OK slowly no! Quickly deteriorated and she passed away 4 weeks later a skeleton from a beautiful young woman.Iam absolutely broken I wasn't there to hold her as she slipped to another life the reason I wasn't there because the hospice had coronavirus restrictions in place, I am a lost soul totally at a loss.

Hi Devon,

Sorry to hear about your loss. Life is cruel,this horrible cancer has totally destroyed our life. My precious son Sunny who was 34/passed away on 21, August 20, it was pancreatic cancer. It was only two weeks history of back pain, GP thought sciatica, prescribed gavapantin, along with other painkillers it didn't help his pain. Third week he developed shortness of breath, fourth week he was admitted to hospital, CT scan didn't show anything, only after bone marrow biopsy it was confirmed pancreatic cancer. Within a week of hospital admission he passed away. This cancer is so lethal, aggressive. My son didn't had any sign or symptoms. 
 

He was healthy, exercising every day, never smoked, no alcohol, working full time. We loved travelling, obviously I traveled with my friends, he traveled himself. 
We lived together, as my daughter moved to Scotland last year with her boyfriend. He was such a gentle soul, never answered back, always thinking positive. 
 

our dreams and hopes were shattered, I find myself deeply sad, empty, broken. I cry everyday, looking at his empty room, looking at all the young people, I miss my Sunny so much.

I can feel your pain, how painful it is when your beloved one is not here anymore, every little thing reminds of our loved one. I am in intense emptiness, loneliness, a deep desire to see my child again.

Take care

Big hug

Ash x

Hi

Sorry to here about your loss, I lost my wife to bone / lung cancer 2 days ago, i feel like my heart has been completely ripped out, she was diagnosed in october after 3 months of illnesses, we have fought and fought to keep her going with incorrect diagnosis and doctors saying she was lying because she had too many issue's. Delays after delays, NHS England denying her treatment saying she didnt tick all the boxes, more delays, eventually she had her first chemo/immunotherapy a week ago but it was too late to help.
 

She lost consiousness for a few minutes, when she came to, she was saying she couldnt breath and pains in her chest, called 999 they arrived within 10 miutes but she was gone 5 mins later. It was so sudden and unexpected so soon, how do I cope with this now, I have lost my sole mate, the love of my life.

Hi

Sorry to here about your loss, I lost my wife to bone / lung cancer 2 days ago, i feel like my heart has been completely ripped out, she was diagnosed in october after 3 months of illnesses, we have fought and fought to keep her going with incorrect diagnosis and doctors saying she was lying because she had too many issue's. Delays after delays, NHS England denying her treatment saying she didnt tick all the boxes, more delays, eventually she had her first chemo/immunotherapy a week ago but it was too late to help.
 

She lost consiousness for a few minutes, when she came to, she was saying she couldnt breath and pains in her chest, called 999 they arrived within 10 miutes but she was gone 5 mins later. It was so sudden and unexpected so soon, how do I cope with this now, I have lost my sole mate, the love of my life.

Hi there,

I'm so sorry to hear your loss. I can understand your pain, losing your loved one is heart breaking. It will be four months on 21, December still feels like yesterday. I cry everyday and miss my son a lot. There is no answer but I still keep saying why. Why my son.? Who was so health conscious, gentle, kind why he is snatched such a short life. 

long cancer is another aggressive cancer like pancreatic cancer. My son had no sign and symptoms, within a week of admission he passed away, prior to admission he wasn't that bad. I still find difficult to believe he is not here.

life is cruel, unfair. I'm having counselling which takes the edge of it. Trying to keep myself busy though it's difficult as my mind is all the time thinking of my son. Started going back to work as phased return as my manager colleagues are very supportive.

we are always here to support you as we all are suffering loosing our beloved ones. take one step at a time, do not rush or make decisions on haste. Deep breathing, plenty of fluids and enough rest, talking pouring your feelings to someone helps you.

write your feelings / emotions, it helps you.

thinking of you in this difficult time 

big hug

Ash xx