Hi ime im ok i was just saying that to show I've gone through stuff myself but thank you . Just saying that mr peace of mind. will not knock on the door we have to go out and find it and it does hurt you will get through it    does change us try giving a friend a call or go for a coffee anything to get you out with your friends for a coffee see how you feel .best wishs if you find it to hard think about it later you its no fun sat at home lonely .best wishs p