Hi 

So sorry to hear of the passing of your mum 

My mum (50) passed away April this year , 3 month's after b3ing diagnosed with lung cancer to then be told 2 weeks later that it was terminal ....im 25 im finding it so hard to cope ... my mum was literally my best friend i turned to her about everything ...im kept busy most days but its night time that really gets to me as well as lack of sleep and as well panic attacks,  I went to the doctors about not being able to sleep feeling very down etc they suggested anti depressants but I'm not one for tablets so cruse bereavement counselling was suggested I'm start in September it's maybe something that would help? 

The world is too cruel and for me I keep thinking why couldn't it be the bad people that gets things like this...

My mum was also a nurse that helped people in their last month's/weeks/days so I find myself thinking this alot with alot of anger  questions why? Why my mum? Why so young? Such a caring person .... 

Hope this helps

Hi Cmae I am so sorry for your loss. I am 38 years of age and thought even at my age it was so cruel to lose my mum so young. I think at any age we are never prepared to deal with the loss of a parent. They should be around  well into a ripe old age and not suffer something so cruel. My mum was also my best friend, my advisor, my world. The anger against the world and why someone so kind and hard working like my mum should be gone while their is badness out there also keeps me going. I hear her voice in my head imagining just what she would say to comfort me in times of need and I hope I never lose that. I hope counseling helps if anything to help you deal with panic attacks. I am also someone who doesn't take tablets and it's nice to know that your GP could refer u to counselling. My sister and brother would chat with me but everyone has their own way of dealing with things. I find the quiet of night is when I get most emotional and I bring out old photos and enjoy the memories. It never gets easier I know but am told that as hard as it sounds it does get easier to cope. Your mum would be so proud of you approaching your GP. She did such an amazing job none of us could comprehend and I understand your struggle for her to be given such an awful diagnosis after all the love and kindness she provided. Keep strong and we are always here in the thread to chat 

Alli.p

Hi Cmae I am so sorry for your loss. I am 38 years of age and thought even at my age it was so cruel to lose my mum so young. I think at any age we are never prepared to deal with the loss of a parent. They should be around  well into a ripe old age and not suffer something so cruel. My mum was also my best friend, my advisor, my world. The anger against the world and why someone so kind and hard working like my mum should be gone while their is badness out there also keeps me going. I hear her voice in my head imagining just what she would say to comfort me in times of need and I hope I never lose that. I hope counseling helps if anything to help you deal with panic attacks. I am also someone who doesn't take tablets and it's nice to know that your GP could refer u to counselling. My sister and brother would chat with me but everyone has their own way of dealing with things. I find the quiet of night is when I get most emotional and I bring out old photos and enjoy the memories. It never gets easier I know but am told that as hard as it sounds it does get easier to cope. Your mum would be so proud of you approaching your GP. She did such an amazing job none of us could comprehend and I understand your struggle for her to be given such an awful diagnosis after all the love and kindness she provided. Keep strong and we are always here in the thread to chat 

Alli.p