Hi Jess,

I'm so sorry about your mum. I know how you feel - I hate cancer too. Before my mum's diagnosis I'm ashamed to say I hadn't given much thought to cancer. It was something that happened to someone else and although it was a terrible disease, it had never affected me. Then my mum was diagnosed with leukaemia. She lived for three weeks after that diagnosis and like you said all of a sudden we were looking at her body but she wasn't there anymore. I like to think she knows what's happening in my life now and is with me and sometimes when I speak to her in my head I can almost hear a reply. 

I know a lot of people with mums who they aren't close to or mums who don't make much effort and I feel lucky that I had such an amazing mum who was interested in my life and did everything to support me. If she wasn't such an amazing mum I wouldn't miss her so much. 

It sounds like you had an amazing mum too. 

I hope you're doing ok. 

Me too. You hear about cancer and all that, but you never expect it to affect you. To be honest, I can't even believe it has affected my family. I can't believe it had to affect my mum. Can't even comprehend it all, really.

I feel like now, as I am older and finished highschool and going into the world of adulthood and starting uni, this is a whole new chapter of my life that I should be sharing with her. I should be going out with her to coffee, which she would have loved.. she would be so excited with me now, getting ready for uni.. it's just so unfair, she would have loved this time in our lives and she can't even be here.

Her own mum died when she was young too, I think she was still a few years older than me at the time, but still young, and she used to say how she never wanted to leave my brother and I like how her own mum did. She deserved so much better. I wish I could spoil her so much.

Sorry for your loss.. I'm sorry for your mum also x

Me too. You hear about cancer and all that, but you never expect it to affect you. To be honest, I can't even believe it has affected my family. I can't believe it had to affect my mum. Can't even comprehend it all, really.

I feel like now, as I am older and finished highschool and going into the world of adulthood and starting uni, this is a whole new chapter of my life that I should be sharing with her. I should be going out with her to coffee, which she would have loved.. she would be so excited with me now, getting ready for uni.. it's just so unfair, she would have loved this time in our lives and she can't even be here.

Her own mum died when she was young too, I think she was still a few years older than me at the time, but still young, and she used to say how she never wanted to leave my brother and I like how her own mum did. She deserved so much better. I wish I could spoil her so much.

Sorry for your loss.. I'm sorry for your mum also x