Hello sussie, I lost my husband in November to cancer I also feel at a terrible loss without him, we did everything together gardening housework everything, married for 42 years, I am 2 months into this awful nightmare cry every day , I just hope as time goes by we will heal , the pain is so so deep, please talk anytime if you wish to me I will always write back SUE x

Hello sussie, I lost my husband in November to cancer I also feel at a terrible loss without him, we did everything together gardening housework everything, married for 42 years, I am 2 months into this awful nightmare cry every day , I just hope as time goes by we will heal , the pain is so so deep, please talk anytime if you wish to me I will always write back SUE x

Oh Sue, my heart goes out to you so much. You are at a similar stage to me so I know your agony. I have just been looking at a photograph and reached the realisation that my Terry is becoming a memory. I desperately don't want him to be a memory, I want him here with me now, protecting me from this pain. I have such terrible withdrawal symptoms now he is not around. I keep getting told by my family I will accept things in time. I cannot see a time I will ever get used to being without him, he was too funny, too noisy, too present and too energetic. He leaves such a massive hole in my life and heart. Isn't it terrible Sue, the price we pay for a happy marriage is just too high.

love and a big hug to you Sue x