Hello

i am so sorry to read your post.   Your husband sounds like he was a good man.  We all say and do things in the heat of the moment .. We wouldn't be human if we didn't    I don't doubt for a moment that your hubby knew how much you loved him, it's the little things we do that stay in our hearts not the cross words.  Some of us have a little longer to try to get our heads around what's happening,  you had five weeks.  Everything has happened so fast for you it's bound to feel surreal.  Though you feel it at this moment, your life isn't over, yes it's significantly different to what you have known, it's true, the old cliche, it does get easier with time.  I hope you have some friends and family to support  you through this awful time.  If not there is always a friendly ear on here where you can say whatever you need to without any judgement or perhaps grief counselling your GP could advise you. Just do what ever feels right for you.

take care of yourself 

Kate x

Hello

i am so sorry to read your post.   Your husband sounds like he was a good man.  We all say and do things in the heat of the moment .. We wouldn't be human if we didn't    I don't doubt for a moment that your hubby knew how much you loved him, it's the little things we do that stay in our hearts not the cross words.  Some of us have a little longer to try to get our heads around what's happening,  you had five weeks.  Everything has happened so fast for you it's bound to feel surreal.  Though you feel it at this moment, your life isn't over, yes it's significantly different to what you have known, it's true, the old cliche, it does get easier with time.  I hope you have some friends and family to support  you through this awful time.  If not there is always a friendly ear on here where you can say whatever you need to without any judgement or perhaps grief counselling your GP could advise you. Just do what ever feels right for you.

take care of yourself 

Kate x