Hi Timmymol

Glad to see  you have already had responses from other forum members.  I lost my husband (aged 62 to mesothelioma) in early January 2015 so I am approaching my second Christmas.  As other have said take it day by day.  I am sure you are still feeling pretty numbed by grief  and I find it easier having people to talk to that understood as well as helping my own children/grandchildren through their sad times. The first Christmas for us was not at all easy but together we came out the other side. This year we will not only miss my hubby as we do all the time anyway but also try to celebrate the arrival of a new grandchild who is just 6 months so very much mixed emotions.  From my point of view all I can say is that you move forward as and when you feel you can but I never forget and am now using the good memories to replace the unhappy times.  Be kind to yourself and remember you are carrying your husband in  your heart wherever you are.  Its not the same but it brought me comfort to think this way.  Take care. Jules

Nice to talk to people on here for once I don't feel alone, I have a close family and a few good friends , but every day I feel so alone without my dear hubby who hated to argue such a kind soul, so now this journey begins life as we don't know it, I try each day to carry on as he would have wanted trouble is he was the strong one not me, I always wanted to go first now I am left with this sadness and emptyness inside, ..they say in time life gets a little easier I just hope that will also be for me. Your Xmas will be so nice for you to have a little one around , this year he or she will be looking at the lights on the tree hope the twinkle of the tree lights will be your husband in his , her eyes, bless you x

Nice to talk to people on here for once I don't feel alone, I have a close family and a few good friends , but every day I feel so alone without my dear hubby who hated to argue such a kind soul, so now this journey begins life as we don't know it, I try each day to carry on as he would have wanted trouble is he was the strong one not me, I always wanted to go first now I am left with this sadness and emptyness inside, ..they say in time life gets a little easier I just hope that will also be for me. Your Xmas will be so nice for you to have a little one around , this year he or she will be looking at the lights on the tree hope the twinkle of the tree lights will be your husband in his , her eyes, bless you x