My mum died and I can't cope with the loss

My mum died of liver cancer 9 months ago. I find each day unbearable and find it harder and harder. I can't sleep at night and break down all the time. I miss her so much and my life feels so empty without her. I have two children and I continue for their sake otherwise I wouldn't have the will to get out of bed each day as I feel so down. 

Does it get easier? because right now, it feels awful.

I keep thinking I need to tell mum this and remember she's gone and breakdown. I see people with their mothers and I envy them.

I feel so alone and helpless. Feel like part of me has died too and I struggle to get back up again.

  • I lost my mum when i was 3. The anxiety and grief ocverwhelms your body. I miss her every day. I would do anything to get her back. Anything

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  • I lost my mum 20 years ago, when I was nine. And I’m not sure I have really ever dealt with it. But the fact that you have been able to recognise this early and share it with people shows that you are a strong person. No hippy nonsense here btw. I didn’t let anyone help me because I didn’t want anyone to take the place of my mum. So, I just shrugged it off for twenty years, until I realised that I was angry, heart broken and needed to talk about it. So I know that this was posted two years ago but well done and keep it up.

  • Thank you for this compassionate and healing post.  Einstein said that energy cannot be halted but goes on and on, like ripples. I shall think of your post and use it as a source of support. God bless you. Love and Peace...

  • hi I’m 18 years old my mum passed away on the 1 feb 2017 with pancreatic cancer (stage 4) I was only 16 when it happened i live on my own I have been since my mum passed away and I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety and some days I can’t get out of my bed without my mum I’ve been lost I can’t eat or sleep will it get any better I miss her so much and still feels like shes here I am making myself ill with it all can anyone help or give me advice x

  • Im speaking from experience, both my parents died of cancer. My mum when I was 9 and my dad when I was 20. I always felt even though you have to allow yourself to feel sad (more than sad really) like a deep painful sorrow, you need to remember that your mum is the only person who gave birth to you. And no one will ever love you more than your parents, especially your mum and she would be so sad to think you’re not coping. She brought you up and gave all the love she could for as long as she knew you, so you need to return the favour by living. Live everyday in memory of your mum and make her happy that you’re getting on with life and doing the best you can. That would make her so happy and proud, after all that’s what mums and dads are about. Just take small steps at a time. What can I do today that would make my mum happy. Eg look after myself, go out with friends, be in a good relationship and love a lot. And no I don’t think it ever goes away, that’s why and how you need to learn to live with it. Oh and always talk to people about it too. This is my opinion and you may need to find your own way. You’re doing great, keep it up and make your mum proud! Xxx

  • Your words made me cry....first Christmas without my beautiful mum....

    So sorry to read you lost both your parents to cancer, I can only imagine a little of how you felt and do feel x 

  • Hello Snowflake.  I am now in a similar place to yourself and feel the feelings you spoke about, now over two years ago.  I would love to know how you are getting on now.