My mum died and I can't cope with the loss

My mum died of liver cancer 9 months ago. I find each day unbearable and find it harder and harder. I can't sleep at night and break down all the time. I miss her so much and my life feels so empty without her. I have two children and I continue for their sake otherwise I wouldn't have the will to get out of bed each day as I feel so down. 

Does it get easier? because right now, it feels awful.

I keep thinking I need to tell mum this and remember she's gone and breakdown. I see people with their mothers and I envy them.

I feel so alone and helpless. Feel like part of me has died too and I struggle to get back up again.

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  • my  mother  died  five years  ago  this  31  december 2013 their  no  easy  way  out  pain  l   keep on  going  all  thouy  l  drank  to  much  it   not  help  me   never  for  get  the  crissmass  we  had  together   now   crissmass   day  is  lonley   me  ll  got  brother  sister  both  selfish  have  famileys     sit  with  on   crissmass  day  open  thier  presants    while l  open  noyhing  they   dont  even  get  me  presant  or  sent  me  a  crissmass  cards   that  me  is  terrible   but  my  mpother  never  for  got   get  me  gift  at  crissmass  that  l  miss  not  just  day  self  but  miss  er  all  year  round  life  empty  unless  got  familey

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  • my  mother  died  five years  ago  this  31  december 2013 their  no  easy  way  out  pain  l   keep on  going  all  thouy  l  drank  to  much  it   not  help  me   never  for  get  the  crissmass  we  had  together   now   crissmass   day  is  lonley   me  ll  got  brother  sister  both  selfish  have  famileys     sit  with  on   crissmass  day  open  thier  presants    while l  open  noyhing  they   dont  even  get  me  presant  or  sent  me  a  crissmass  cards   that  me  is  terrible   but  my  mpother  never  for  got   get  me  gift  at  crissmass  that  l  miss  not  just  day  self  but  miss  er  all  year  round  life  empty  unless  got  familey

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