Syliva, I am so very sorry for your loss, I know how it feels, my husband passed away in October and I miss him so much, I too wish they could let us know they are ok.  There are lots of people on here going through the same terrible time who will offer support.  Sending love to you Debbie xxxxxx

Thanks debbie ,its nice to know people care iwas married nearly 46 years  even though i do things during the day  your still coming home to a empty house i dont think i will ever get used to it  kind regards Sylvia x

Hi Sylvia. Very sorry about your loss. It is a terrible place to be. I lost my husband four months ago. I have terrible days when I don't want to be alive.  I feel do sad. I haven't started to move his personal belongings and they are still where he left them. Don't know when I will be able to do that. You are right family even our children don't take away the pain. I have good friends who take me out and they visit often which helps but not take away the pain which is very real. I was told I was on a journey which I was annoyed at but on reflection it is. I have lots of photographs around me of my special person at different stages of his life. I have also started a book and write down all my special memories. I have a counsellor not bereavement but one who has supported me along my own cancer journey. She just listens to my rants and when I leave I usually feel better.  Kindest regards and I will think of you and hope things improve. Anne 

Hi Sylvia

Am sorry for your loss and like Debbie has already said there are many of us here who understand your feelings just now.  I am further down the widowhood journey (lost hubby 16mths ago today) and certainly remember the total devastation that loss brings even when surrounded by family/friends.  You are right in that life will never be the same and for now your feelings of greif are very raw.  Be kind to yourself and come and post as and when you would like to.  Jules

Hi Debbie not heard off you in a while  hope your ok ,been out with my son and daughter on different ocasions  over the week end, it was lovely to get out and about for a while im well aware im alwaye coming home to a empty house. regards syl

Hi Syl, not been good for a few weeks now don't know whether its a stage or the nice weather but been very down, had my mum round today and got stuck into the garden, I just can't face going out with family or friends. Hope it passes soon.  Glad you have been out and about.   Take care thinking of you.  Debbie  xxxx

Sorry your feeling down  its a awful feeling  as if your never  going to feel happy again, i watered my garden tonight my husband always did it  ,its little things like that you realise how life has changed do you have kids Debbie? they can be a comfort  when your feeling down . take care Syl x

Hi Syl no I don't have children I do have good friends and family and my little neice is a joy. Debbie xxxx 

Hi Syl and Debbie

The early weeks and months after  such a deep loss (for some years even) throw up many emotions and even the presence of family and friends can sometimes present their own problems. Our feelings are so personal and sometimes difficult to explain to others but the forum gave me a much needed outlet for the emotional rollercoaster I found myself on.

I am somewhat further along the journey as it is almost 17 months since I lost hubby though the emotions still come and go. Earlier today I had a message to say my son's fiancee was in labour (week overdue) with their first baby and  I shed tears both in the happiness that is coming and the sadness that my hubby, who would have been so proud, is not here to share the moment in person.  I am grabbing on to the thought that he is in all our hearts and that the new baby will have some of his genes as she goes on with life's journey.

Hope you both have a peaceful day. x