As many of you know I lost my Dad in May, meaning that I would have to deal with my first father's day without him, and now we're in July which also happens to be the month he was born, he would've been 48. In September is my sister's birthday, and mine will be 17th December and then we have Christmas and New Year without him too. It just seems like one thing after another and I feel like I'm not even going to have time to sit down and actually comprehend what's actually happened. I don't feel normal, I don't feel like I've cried like other people have, what's wrong with me? Did he really prepare me that well that I'm maybe ok with him not being here or am I just completely avoiding the whole subject and choosing to not feel these emotions. I'm frightened for when it will actually hit me, or will it ever?
