Hi Paul, check out the inspiration page, will reply later tonight.  Just sending this now in case you log off soon. Kathy.  I tend to stay logged in for hours.

Hi Paul, me back again. You are not being a wuss mate, we all cope in different ways and if it works just do it.  Hubby's website is www.heroeshq.org, then go to in memoriam.  He is man in kilt looking so happy (even though an Aussie loved Scotland). At the moment there is only 2 in memorials as I suggested it at the time.  But from little seeds acorns can grow. 

I have checked out your website and it does look great.

Pretty hot here at present but that's life.  Garden is 1/4 acre block but once I get it under control feel confident I can maintain.  Love being outside in fresh air...only when the mozzies start I will come inside..

New improved website confusing me, was not able to do paragraphs before... Now I have to pretend I am semi literate.  Now I pad users can do pics I will be able to send you pic of my lovely dog, 11 years.  I swear if he tried to get any closer to me in bed at night would be on me.   Even though I have ac on in bedroom he has to be snuggled next to me, poor boy, knows his dad is not physically here so has to make do with his only constant in life here,

me.

Hi Kathy just lost everything again, been Sat here for over an hour replying, then tried to upload a photo of Sheba and everything disappeared, then tried again, things keep disappearing, going to log off to compose myself, didn't want you to think I was ignoring you, have checked out inspiration page, and your Hubby's website, so wonderful, why is life so cruel., sorry, chat later, just got to calm myself, take care, Paul

Hi Kathy, just don't know what happened last time, just lost everything, so trying now on the lap top. I did check out the inspiration page, wow didnt realize there was so much in this chat forum. such wonderful poeple with so much encouragement. Checked out your Hubby's website, so nice, really wonderful, he would be so proud of you, and what a wonderful man and you look such a loving couple, life can be cruel. 

Was going to try to download pictures of Sheba but worried about losing it all again. next time will download before i start to type. It's so nice when they cuddle up next to you isn't it, Shaba and i have a cuddle before we go to sleep and she is so patient when i awake, gives me time to come round then its cuddles and play time for a minute or two before we get up. Took your advice and was positive when I went to the bereavement lunch, did'nt really want to go, but did'nt feel to bad at all when I got there, I was the first ti leave but i had to get back for Sheba, don't like leaving her too long. Been out today for two long walks but it is bitterly cold her, just had a hot bath to warm up.

Into the office first thing in the morning, then got a meeting with an old army guy, another one of my volunteer jobs, "ssafa" we look after old soldiers, sailors and airmen, women and their families, i just sit with them and ask if we can help in anyway, then my report goes into the head office and they try to source funds to help with their request. its another "makes you feel good" job.

Hope this gets to you ok and has'nt dissappeared before i post it, Take care Kathy Kind regards Paul

Hi Paul,
Just a quick note to let you know I haven't dropped off the face of the earth, just issues posting.  Keep losing things besides my marbles.....
Rgds Kathy
 

Hi Paul,
Apologies for delay in response but have had technical issues and had darling grandson stay for 36 hours with grand daughter for the last few hours also so was kept on my toes.  What joy.  They have such beautiful manners and are so affectionate.  I am  doubly blessed.
I am glad you went to the luncheon.  Even though you might not feel like going out I think it's something we have to force ourselves to do.  I went out last week for tea with 2 girlfriends and am really a homebody so to go out at teatime, driving myself is quite a novel experience.  Of course I walked into the wrong bar area as had never been there before and it was the mans bar, but the kind bar maid took me to the correct area.  I felt such a twit.
After tea I returned to car to find my driving glasses had cracked due to the heat and it wasn't even that hot.  Spec savers tell me they are not covered by warranty as this can happen if left in car.  As I only wear specs for driving or TV I leave a pair in both those areas.  Might challenge them as have never been advised not to leave in car (but too be honest it does make sense).
Today I have found this note function so am typing on it then will copy and post.  If post malfunctions can retry and won't have lost it. Yay for me.
Your ssafa work sounds really interesting and I can imagine you would be very good at it, compassionate, patient and understanding.
It was a scorcher yesterday 41' but the littlies had great fun playing with buckets of water, plastic cups and water balloons.  The simple things in life.  I tried to blow up a paddling pool earlier in the day but just couldn't do it, tried car tyre pump and sticking a straw in valve and blowing to no avail, but we made do with what we had.
I have just put the cooler on as will stay home tdy as 38 the top and dog quite happy to stay inside with me.  Will take the lad out for a wander this evening if it cools down sufficiently before dark.
I plan on doing a bit of work outside today taking care to cover up, sounds mad but beats sitting inside and it will give me a feeling that I have accomplished another chore by the end of the day.
Well Paul will sign off and see how my copy and paste works
Take care, Kathy x
 

[[]]Hi Paul, just trying to send pic of the lad

[[]]here is Sheba posing on her not so clean quilt and chilling out on the settee

In my last posting to you, you may have seen I had problems, I was amazed when I got an email from the cancer chat posting team asking what had actually happened, they where so apologetic. Hopefully it's all sorted now. What a chilled out lad he is, just pottering around the garden, maybe looking for a nice cool spot, does he cope well with the heat, they are very good at adapting aren't . Sheba and I have been out for our walk this morning and now she is asleep on the sofa next to me. It sounded that you had a magical time with your grandchildren, there is nothing better than polite children and even better when they are your grandchildren, as it was I baby sat last night for my son Mark as he took his wife Nicola out for Valentines day, they where also very good, a 3 and 1 year old, didn't take them to bed, let them fall asleep as they sat with me then took them to their rooms. I bought Dawn a valentines card, I always do for every occasion, think she would like that. Visited the city hospital yesterday for our bereavement chats and they commented on how more positive, composed and more open I was, I told them I was chatting online to you and how positive you are and they commented how nice and encouraging it is that everyone is helping each other. So once again I can only thank you for sticking with me and helping me to be more positive. It is the time of year though that Dawn was admitted to hospital and had the operation to remove the tumour, don't want to forget what she went through but learn to cope with it, going to decide now on what to have for dinner, probably change my mind two or three times before I cook.  T

Hi there Kathy sorry bout the last post, but it all went a bit funny again seems to do that when I try to add photos, didn't seem a very kind signing off, think you have the best idea, individual postings for text and photos, take care, Kind regards Paul 

Goodness Paul,

Sheba looks so lovely and comfy, such intelligent eyes.  Our pets are so good to us. We are so lucky. Bit hot tdy but cooler now.  Dog asleep on sofa, cat inside and stretched out in front of doorway where I could trip over him.  How are you doing? 

Kathy

Goodness Paul,

Sheba looks so lovely and comfy, such intelligent eyes.  Our pets are so good to us. We are so lucky. Bit hot tdy but cooler now.  Dog asleep on sofa, cat inside and stretched out in front of doorway where I could trip over him.  How are you doing? 

Kathy