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Losing my darling Tony is so painful.He died in my arms  on Feb 5th this year ,he was diagnosed with terminal mesethelioma in 2010 had chemo and radio therapy then he was told he had kydney desease he had a fistula in his arm this failed he had 2 more these also failed his kidneys were working at 18 percent luckily he didnt need dialysis we had been married for 40 wonderful years he was so very brave he was in hospital for two weeks he had to have fluid drained from his tummy but was able to come home and was with us for 6 days on a syringe driver and our doctor gave him an injection to keep him calm he just slept away I feel totaly lost and lonely tearful angry and iI have lost the love of my life x

  • Oh dear Kathy im sorry you are having a wobble but understandable when you had been together as long as you had and  shared so much but I do know how you feel only to well and I have tears every day still ..Rusty is perfectaly healthy some racers who no longer do well are retired anywhere from 2 to 6years old  he averaged finishing 3rd and only 3 wins out of 21 races but he now runs for fun and loves it bless him he has a bed in my room and the lounge but he dosnt sleep on my bed im glad he would take up thewhole bed and I would be on the floor ha ha .Have you always lived in OZ  Tonys sister lives in NZ and I live in beautiful Cornwall a town called St Austell close to the beach .I hope you enjoy your day with friends tomoro and hope you have a Happy New year Kathy take care lovely lady and hugs sent to you .Sueanne x

  • Hi Sueanne, like you I have howled when read Jules post. I am there with you sobbing my eyes out, not for us but for her loss. Such a wonderful support she is for all. My heart is breaking anew for her and family, Kathy x
  • Hi Kathy and Sueanne,

    Like you both, I am very upset to read about Jules loss. I have been chatting to her since she joined way back In Sept 2012 and It's strange how you get to know people quite well on here and come to regard them as part of our vitual family. She has been through so much but has always found time to offer help and support to others. I thought both your replies to her on her thread were spot on.

    Take care both of you, for I am all too aware, you know first hand what she is going through, having both suffered loss your selves. Sending kind thoughts and best wishes your way, Brian

  • Hello Kathy you and I know only to well how she will be feeling bless her I joined the forum in June 2013 and she has continued to support me and so many others she is a saint no words can comfort her at the moment although expected its still a shock when it happens and her hubby had the same type of cancer my Tony had (mesothelioma)horrid all cancers are horrid ..But Jules did all she could for her hubby and more my thoughts are with her and family ..Hope you are ok Kathy and got back into the swing of the new year hope it brings happiness for you ..Sueanne x

  • Hello Thankyou for you kind words  ,What a sad day it is for Jules who like you say had so much going on but always found time for her forum friends bless her it knocks you for six dosnt it .Rusty and I went for a walk at 8 30 it is damp not rain yet but promised for later and 9.6degs miserable realy .I have done a roast beef dinner today and must play meals on wheals for my son who has got man flu but fancies roast so off I go at 1pm ..Take care Brian all the best to Mrs B .Sueannex

  • Hi Brian, As always you know the right words to say. Thank you. Fires appear to be not so threatening now, but Wednesday could be concerning again.  Time will tell. Sis in law has asked me to attend mother in laws assessment on Thursday, and father in law has asked me to assist with mother in laws travel arrangements hopefully home next day.  Pity hubby's family don't get on with each other. Don't people realise life is too short for petty squabbling.....kathy 

  • Hi sueanne

    Keeping you in my thoughts during the anniversary week of Tony's passing. May the wonderful memories you have stored in your heart keep you warm today and always.Jules

  • Hi Sueanne,

    Like our lovely Jules, Just wanted to let you know your forum buddies will be thinking of you this week. It is always hard and brings home how much we miss our loved ones.

    I hope you are still taking Rusty to meet his girlfriend. Animals just like us humans, do form a bond with each other, just as they do with us humans. Take care Sueanne,best wishes and kind thoughts being sent your way, Brian.

  • Thankyou Jules and Brian ,It Is hard knowing I can never see him again hold him or talk to him again ,but memories I will keep in my heart  forever ..True love is strong ..42 years can not be forgotten and will be treasured ..The weather is lovely and has been for a few days its 15 degs at the moment and sunny  yes Brian Rusty has been out for lovely walks and playing in the garden today he did see Jessie yesterday they kissed then walked in the opposite direction ha ha love eh Take care lovely forum buddies hugs to you both ...Sueanne xx

  • Hi Sueanne

     

    Like you I had known hubby for 42 yrs (married 37) and those years gave many memories and made my life richer. Added to that, part of 'our men' live on in the children and they continue to bring happiness and more memories in the making.

    I love the idea of Rusty 'flirting' and then 'turning the other cheek' (sometimes they are more like humans than we give them credit for).  Hope you have a peaceful day.  Bit murky here but will go and see Mum later and attend to more paperwork.  I suppose its good to keep the brain busy.  Look after yourself and hope all is well in Cornwell.  Hugs  Jules x