Where has my husband gone? I thought I was coping, but why does it now feel worse than ever? I miss him so much

I lost my husband just over 3 months ago to Cancer. to begin with I went through the motions - Will, admin, arranging my husbands funeral. I thought I was coping. Why does it now feel worse than ever. I miss him so much that I haven't got the words. Don't really know why I am writing this as nothing anyone can say will bring him back. I still keep hoping he will walk through the door and this is all a bad dream. But its not is it. The world is spinning round and I'm an outsider looking in. I don't feel part of things. I've lost my normal. To think I have all the years ahead without him is unbearable. I try to keep little routines, I know I have to go on. He wanted me to enjoy life but it all feels meaning less.

  • I'm so sorry for your loss Waves.

    I can't begin to imagine how different life must be without your husband by your side and this sense of detachment you're feeling at the moment is completely understandable, and natural, so continue to be kind and understanding to yourself and what you are going through as you try to navigate this very difficult time in your life.

    Keeping little routines is a good start and although it may not seem like it right now, this will help you as time goes on. For the moment though, try to stay in the moment and take things one day at a time as thinking too far ahead may become a bit overwhelming.

    I hope the information Moderator Lucie shared with you a few months back on coping with grief has helped somewhat but if you are now at the point where you feel you may need further support and advice then it may be worth reaching out to your GP or bereavement support services such as Cruse Bereavement or Sue Ryder. Both of these charities offer over the phone and online support so do get in touch with them when you can if you want to find out more.

    Our members know just how difficult and challenging life can be when losing a loved one to cancer, so you are not alone Waves, and I hope it won't be long until some of them stop by to offer their support and advice.

    In the meantime, our thoughts are with you and we will always be here for you when you need us.

    Kind regards,

    Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator