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I'm broken after the loss of my husband 2 weeks ago

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I lost my husband two weeks ago today. He was the love of my life. I honestly haven't got a bad word to say about him. The emptiness I feel can't be put into words. Its overwhelming. At night, I cry and cry. Everyone tells me this is all part of the grief process but that doesn't make it any easier to bare. I'm snowed under with making arrangements and sorting things out. If only I could wish him back to me. I realise someone may answer ths post and say things get easier but that feels like a million miles away. In many ways the pain of losing him is all I have.  

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    I'm so very sorry for your loss I've written a separate message lots of love xx

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    Hello BradS and Lucie

    Thank you for your messages. As you say this is all beyond horrible. My emotions are all over the place. Cancer is a very cruel disease. I know what you mean when you say our life has stopped yet the world keeps turning. Taking things a day at a time helps. Everything is so raw for us. We have all these arrangements to make at the worst possible time when all we want to do is breathe and mourn.

    I am finding that trying to put some structure into the day helps me. I get up and dress and try and do things when I have very small moments of clarity. But, its not the same for everyone. Getting up is an effort when all I want to do is hide. Its hard when you don't have family nearby too. I'm estranged from my family.

    I make lists to, things I can do, make myself do. Maybe just going for a walk. 

    I don't know what the answer to grief is. I know its the worst thing I've ever felt. I just want my husband back. 

    I hope you are managing to sleep. 

    Waves

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    Hello BradS and Lucie

    Thank you for your messages. As you say this is all beyond horrible. My emotions are all over the place. Cancer is a very cruel disease. I know what you mean when you say our life has stopped yet the world keeps turning. Taking things a day at a time helps. Everything is so raw for us. We have all these arrangements to make at the worst possible time when all we want to do is breathe and mourn.

    I am finding that trying to put some structure into the day helps me. I get up and dress and try and do things when I have very small moments of clarity. But, its not the same for everyone. Getting up is an effort when all I want to do is hide. Its hard when you don't have family nearby too. I'm estranged from my family.

    I make lists to, things I can do, make myself do. Maybe just going for a walk. 

    I don't know what the answer to grief is. I know its the worst thing I've ever felt. I just want my husband back. 

    I hope you are managing to sleep. 

    Waves

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