Hi Alice, 

Firstly, I am so sorry for your loss, sending hugs and strength to you. I wanted to reach out because I lost my beautiful Mum 2 weeks ago to metastatic breast cancer. I too had an unbreakable bond so fully understand your pain and my heart goes out to you. My mum had just turned 57. I've just turned 35 so although I'm not quiet your age, I still could never comprehend losing my Mum at this age. 

I think it can feel so isolating as well when our friends haven't been through this so just don't understand how truly painful it is. Like you, my Mum was my best friend. She was my favourite person in the entire world and now my world looks very different. She was my rock and I'm completely lost without her. Our bond was so special. I still even now talk to her every day just when I'm looking at her photo or holding one of her teddies that she had. It brings me comfort somehow. 

Anyway, my inbox is open if you could do with a friend who understands x

Hi Alice, 

Firstly, I am so sorry for your loss, sending hugs and strength to you. I wanted to reach out because I lost my beautiful Mum 2 weeks ago to metastatic breast cancer. I too had an unbreakable bond so fully understand your pain and my heart goes out to you. My mum had just turned 57. I've just turned 35 so although I'm not quiet your age, I still could never comprehend losing my Mum at this age. 

I think it can feel so isolating as well when our friends haven't been through this so just don't understand how truly painful it is. Like you, my Mum was my best friend. She was my favourite person in the entire world and now my world looks very different. She was my rock and I'm completely lost without her. Our bond was so special. I still even now talk to her every day just when I'm looking at her photo or holding one of her teddies that she had. It brings me comfort somehow. 

Anyway, my inbox is open if you could do with a friend who understands x

Hello, thank you for responding and I’m so so sorry to hear that you’ve just lost your beautiful Mumma too. I know it must be extremely raw for you right now, so please don’t feel you need to rush to reply.

I can imagine losing a parent at any age is hard, but 35 is still way too young. It isn’t fair at all and my heart goes out to you as well. 

I feel and relate to every word that you’ve said. It is unfathomably difficult to carry on without them, but there is no alternative and they will ultimately want us to keep finding the little joys in each day, and keep finding reasons to smile even without them. It’s great that you talk to her everyday - I like to think they can hear us.

I was apprehensive about posting on this forum but I’m so pleased I did. I didn’t realise how cathartic it would be to chat with others who just understand. I would also like you to know you can message me anytime you nend x Sorry again for your loss

Thank you for being understanding and telling me not to rush to reply. I've found it so tough this past week especially and seem to have no motivation for anything =/

I agree with everything you've said and that they would want us to find joy in life. 

I hope you're as okay as can be anyway and likewise, please feel free to message me any time :) I know how difficult this is. Sending hugs x