Hi Goofed. How are you doing now? I lost my mum too to lung cancer, so suddenly (only had 6 month with her from diagnosis) and she sadly passed on Christmas day just gone. I had a very low day today, memories - both good and bad - keep flooding in and realising that my mum has truly gone gut punches me everytime. 

I am only 35, and I did not expect to be burying her yet. I was hoping for many more years :(

Hi, I'm so sorry for late reply your message went to my junk email. So very sorry for your loss, 6 months is no time, my mum got a diagnosis 12weeks before she passed but she'd had symptoms previous and struggled for every breath for the last year. How are you feeling? I still try to block it from my mind and it takes such energy to do because the alternative I'm just not ready to accept. In moments though I cry and think I'll never stop when I think of the enormity of what I've lost, not only was she a link to my past ,she was one of only two people that loved me unconditionally and more than themselves. I'm trying to get grief counselling at the minute but there's a long wait, but I've signed up to sue ryders grief counselling txt messages- I get a txt every so often explaining ways to feel better which are helpful maybe you could try too, gives you little exercises to do to change your way of thinking when your having a particularly bad time of it.  I hope things improve for you, it's such early days, I think to find any peace we need to find a new way of living with grief, your so young too I'm sure your mum wouldn't want you to beat yourself up. I really hope you feel a bit better soon, please keep in touch if you want too, sending a big hug x

Hi, I'm so sorry for late reply your message went to my junk email. So very sorry for your loss, 6 months is no time, my mum got a diagnosis 12weeks before she passed but she'd had symptoms previous and struggled for every breath for the last year. How are you feeling? I still try to block it from my mind and it takes such energy to do because the alternative I'm just not ready to accept. In moments though I cry and think I'll never stop when I think of the enormity of what I've lost, not only was she a link to my past ,she was one of only two people that loved me unconditionally and more than themselves. I'm trying to get grief counselling at the minute but there's a long wait, but I've signed up to sue ryders grief counselling txt messages- I get a txt every so often explaining ways to feel better which are helpful maybe you could try too, gives you little exercises to do to change your way of thinking when your having a particularly bad time of it.  I hope things improve for you, it's such early days, I think to find any peace we need to find a new way of living with grief, your so young too I'm sure your mum wouldn't want you to beat yourself up. I really hope you feel a bit better soon, please keep in touch if you want too, sending a big hug x