Hi there sorry for your loss and also that you have found out you got bowel cancer life surely does suck at times does it 

At min I'm putting all my effort into selling our old house and my mom's so that's taking my time up at min x 

Hi Diane sorry for your loss ,Christimas was particularly hard as he used to do everything over the Xmas period so we have had to manage it ourselves but at min I'm putting all my energy into getting our old house and my mom's sold so that's keeping me busy x 

Yeah it has altho this month is our daughters 18th so that's going to be a hard one for her not having her dad around for it and one of his other daughters is expecting a baby any day soon again going to be hard x 

Clickoff so sorry to hear that, I don’t know what to say to you, if you want to chat just a message away,  can’t bring myself to even watch the same programs we used to watch together yet, 

sleeping and eating is  a problem still, constant feel sick, so trying to eat little and often but still sick, I’m going to try go back to work next week to get in to a routine maybe sleep and eat better? But them I have people saying are you ready for that? I honestly don’t know what to do, then it makes me question myself!