Hi flips71

I lost my husband 2 months ago. We were told he would have about 2 years left, but he died 10 days later.

I feel your pain. I know it is hard. It's harder than anything I have ever gone, going through.

I'm functioning but sad.  For me, preparation for the funeral was like the last thing I was able to do for him. Somehow that helped.

But after the funeral everyone around me started to carry on with there lives and i did feel forgotten. 

I try to plan something each day, I do this because I can't spend a whole day on my own in the home we made together without getting upset. 

It might be a walk with my dogs, a grocery shop, or going around mindlessly a garden centre. All these things I used to do, they feel different now.  No longer am I putting his favourite foods in my trolley and that upset me. Going back to an empty house is very hard. I leave a radio on when I go out, that way when I come home it isn't so quiet. 

I talk to friends and family and sound fine but I'm broken inside.

I don't know when this gets easier but people say it does. I hope so. 

Sorry for your loss 10 days that's so sad we was told 3 months without treatment unfortunately he cudnt have it n got just over 3 months the last 2 data were the worst tho,I can still hear his pain in my head when it's quiet X I've lost my dad and aunt last yr not cancer and then hubby 2 weeks ago I think someone got it in for me up there x

Hi , sorry for your loss, my partner passed away last month, how are you getting on? 
I’m struggling putting into words how to feel and wgat to say, people say about being strong and doing well, I’m really not, days are long nights are longer and harder, is there’s anything that helps? 

Hi flip

I am so sorry to read about your loss.

I totally understand how you are feeling. 

People say I am strong too, also things that seem so flippant.

I find doing some familiar things helps. I do the same routine I did with my husband. I eat dinner at the same time, and watch the news then the chase then the one show.  It might seem strange but it helps me.

Crying has slowed down, I don't cry every day now but when I do I find it hard to stop. 

I too can still remember clearly the last 10 days of his life. The agony he went through still does re runs in my head. 

I try to replace the thoughts with positive ones but it is hard to do. 

I have found out I have bowel cancer and the thought of him not being with me breaks me. 

Hi there sorry for your loss and also that you have found out you got bowel cancer life surely does suck at times does it 

At min I'm putting all my effort into selling our old house and my mom's so that's taking my time up at min x 

Hi there sorry for your loss and also that you have found out you got bowel cancer life surely does suck at times does it 

At min I'm putting all my effort into selling our old house and my mom's so that's taking my time up at min x 

That is a lot of  hard work sorting everything out.I hope it all goes smoothly for you.

I hope it helps keep all the sadness at bay whilst you are busy. I know how tiring being sad and crying can be. 

Take care. 

Yeah it has altho this month is our daughters 18th so that's going to be a hard one for her not having her dad around for it and one of his other daughters is expecting a baby any day soon again going to be hard x