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Haunted by the images of my mum taking her last breath. I have tried to be strong but I'm struggling

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After a brave 2 and a half year battle with cancer I lost my wonderful mum in February this year.

I saw her take her last breath in hospital and can't stop seeing it. It took the doctor 7 hours to arrive and I was left alone with her the whole time in a hospital room.

I've tried to keep busy but have nightmares almost every night. I've spoken to my gp but he was very unhelpful.

I'm on the waiting list for help but have been told it could be months before I can speak to someone 

I'm on my own and have tried to be strong but I'm struggling 

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    Hi, I’m sorry you are experiencing this. I lost my partner in September from lung cancer. I cared for him at home and he died of a pulmonary haemorrhage at 2 o’clock in the morning. He walked to bed and to the bathroom himself when this started happening. I will never forget the look in his eyes when we both realised this was not going to stop.

    I was alone for almost 2 1/2 hours afterwards as we live remotely, before the hospital team arrived. Like yourself I’m tormented by thoughts and worried I didn’t do things right but realistically know I did what I could at the time. I’ve spoken to GP and palliative nurse and I understand what this happened but I can’t stop reliving it over and over. 
    I hope you find peace soon x

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    Hi, I’m sorry you are experiencing this. I lost my partner in September from lung cancer. I cared for him at home and he died of a pulmonary haemorrhage at 2 o’clock in the morning. He walked to bed and to the bathroom himself when this started happening. I will never forget the look in his eyes when we both realised this was not going to stop.

    I was alone for almost 2 1/2 hours afterwards as we live remotely, before the hospital team arrived. Like yourself I’m tormented by thoughts and worried I didn’t do things right but realistically know I did what I could at the time. I’ve spoken to GP and palliative nurse and I understand what this happened but I can’t stop reliving it over and over. 
    I hope you find peace soon x

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