hi, im 17years old and when i was 5 i lost my mum to breast cancer. as i was pretty young i don’t remember a lot, my mum was my everything and as ive been growing us always going to groups for kids like me who have struggled with grief i thought it would help but it hasn’t.as im growing up it gets harder and harder to deal with when i thought it would get better i struggle every day but when people ask whats wrong i tell them its nothing because it was so long ago im worried people are going to think that im just dwelling on it or just think im looking for attention because theres no real reason to bring it up. i just miss her every day. now and then i try and call or text her on her old facebook account but obviously theres not going to be a response but still i cling on to the hope that she will. she meant the world to me i remember the day my dad told me it was December 23rd and i was on my way back from a Christmas disco at school when my dad pulled over and started telling me that he loved me and my whole family loved me then said i got a call from your uncle and thats when he told me she had passed i just cried and cried, her funeral was then on the 11th of January 4 days before my sixth birthday i just can’t believe it shes gone, like actually gone. why isn’t the grief getting better every time i think about her i go through it all over again no matter the circumstance i just need her more than ever.