I am sorry about your loss and I am glad you have the support that will see you through this very tough period of your life. 

I lost my mum two years ago and I believe she is with me and I talk to her all the time. I am not crazy, well, no more than anyone else - life takes the bark off you with the best of us - who gets out of it completely sane I don't know but there have been many things that have happened since she passed where I now believe she is with me and she helps me when I need it.

People have their own beliefs about what happens to someone when they die but all I can say is through my own experiences is that my mum is with me and I am very happy about it and that I will see her one day again - if others don't believe in that then fine, hold on to what you believe in. 

Talk to mum, tell her you need her help to get through this and you love her, I did that and it helped - a lot.

Take care and you'll get through this, these feelings won't last forever and you'll remember your mum with a smile and warmth in your heart.

Thank you for replying HScholey...

You are so young to be dealing with something like this, do you have someone to support you while you are there for your mum? 

My son is 18 too. He was with mum at the end. I'm finding it very hard to make sense of what has happened myself, god knows how he is dealing with it. He was consoling me last night actually. 

Xx

Honestly I don’t have much support, just my partner which I’m so grateful for, but he doesn’t understand no matter how hard he tries, my mum is the only family I have, idk my dad or his side of the family and my uncle lives in Australia and doesn’t talk to me. I don’t know how to handle it and I don’t know if I’m doing anything wrong or how to make her feel better, I wish I could do something to help and save her, your son sounds so brave and I’m so glad he is helping you with your loss, I bet he’s so proud of you and how brave you are. I understand it must be hard to make sense of what’s happened to your mum, and I know nothing I say can take away your pain, but you’re doing amazing, your family must be so proud of you and I’m 100% sure you mum is, she will always be with you x

My mum passed away in May last year, and during her last weeks the cancer was in a position where it was blocking her bowel. She hardly ate at all & it was so hard for everyone. I know how hard it must be, but you and your son are so brave; you'll get through this together.