So sorry to read this, a huge shock for you and your family. It's very early days and your grieving, losing a loved one through any circumstances is terrible. But losing your husband so suddenly must feel absolutely unbearable.

This isn't something you can go through alone, there are many bereavement organisations you can contact online. And some excellent ones for families, I don't know how old your children are, but if they are of an age to understand, they will probably be hurting too. Definitely worth speaking to someone on this site, I'm sure they will have a bereavement counsellor.

Nothing can bring your husband back, but in time your pain will be come bearable. You will never forget him, but will learn to live without him and it seems very dark at the moment, in time the light will shine again.

Wishing you and your family all the best for the future xx

Hi

i am so sorry and l understand how you feel l lost my wonderful husband my soulmate in October nearly 11weeks ago he was diagnosed and died within 24 da ys it took 12 days to find signet cell adenocarcioma gastric cancer the doctor told us it shows no symptoms until your stage4 and it's fatal he died 12days later we were together 40 years and married 38 years l was 18 and l got married at 19 and a half he was my life and l was his nothing ever prepares you for the loss and your left with just a complete emptiness and sadness l myself am starting grief and bereavement counselling if you need to talk l am hereK l think only someone that's going through it can only understand the deep feelings of loss and all the should have been.,know in all the moments and all of everyday ache and sadness l am with you and l get it saying a prayer for both of us today.

Sandra.xx