Hi, My husband (42) died on 1st December and i'm struggling to come to terms with it all. He was a very fit healthy man and was never poorly. We have 2 kids and got married only 4 months ago. he had a blood clot in his leg and 2 weeks later he was diagnosed with metastatic cancer (primarily bowel and moved to 50% of his liver, 1 lung and some lymph nodes). He was given 3 years to live but he died within 4 weeks of diagnosis The Dr's said they had only seen one case like this before where the cancer was so aggressive. I am still in total shock and i don't know how i am meant to do this? i'm broken and part of me wishes i could die too which i know sounds terrible as i have 2 children to look after and get through losing their daddy. I know i need to go on for them, but knowing my future will be without my husband leaves me hollow and scared.
