Hi Jamal, I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through that. 
I know how difficult it is, my dad has stage 4 cancer and the doctors have told him it isn't curable. He has one of the most aggressive tumours you can get and most people don't survive more than 4-6 months after diagnosis. I feel really devastated right now. I feel sick with worry about the pain he is in at the moment and also the pain that I know I will be in when he passes. I'm in my mid twenties so it hurts to know that he won't be around to see the next stages of my life like potentially meeting boyfriends/ getting married/ meeting future children. 

I find that it's difficult to see him struggling to eat, loosing weight and being ill because he's always been such a strong person. And I don't even think he knows how bad it is. The doctors have told him they're only going to be able to possibly slow the cancer but didn't give him any timeframe and he hasn't looked on the internet about the type of cancer he has. 
 

I feel myself withdrawing socially, seeing people happy just makes me feel annoyed and I feel like I can't talk to my friends because they have no idea how much I'm hurting and don't know what to say to me. I seem to be drawing comfort from fictional characters in books I've read who have lost a parent and realising that they have coped so maybe I can too (I know that sounds silly because they are fictional). Also reading about them processing the grief makes me realise that it's okay to feel all different feelings. 
another thing I'm finding helpful is talking to my siblings. I feel like they understand what I'm going through the most. 
ive booked myself in for a therapy session next week so hopefully I can offload there.

Are you doing anything in particular to help you cope and process the emotions? 

Hi Jamal, I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through that. 
I know how difficult it is, my dad has stage 4 cancer and the doctors have told him it isn't curable. He has one of the most aggressive tumours you can get and most people don't survive more than 4-6 months after diagnosis. I feel really devastated right now. I feel sick with worry about the pain he is in at the moment and also the pain that I know I will be in when he passes. I'm in my mid twenties so it hurts to know that he won't be around to see the next stages of my life like potentially meeting boyfriends/ getting married/ meeting future children. 

I find that it's difficult to see him struggling to eat, loosing weight and being ill because he's always been such a strong person. And I don't even think he knows how bad it is. The doctors have told him they're only going to be able to possibly slow the cancer but didn't give him any timeframe and he hasn't looked on the internet about the type of cancer he has. 
 

I feel myself withdrawing socially, seeing people happy just makes me feel annoyed and I feel like I can't talk to my friends because they have no idea how much I'm hurting and don't know what to say to me. I seem to be drawing comfort from fictional characters in books I've read who have lost a parent and realising that they have coped so maybe I can too (I know that sounds silly because they are fictional). Also reading about them processing the grief makes me realise that it's okay to feel all different feelings. 
another thing I'm finding helpful is talking to my siblings. I feel like they understand what I'm going through the most. 
ive booked myself in for a therapy session next week so hopefully I can offload there.

Are you doing anything in particular to help you cope and process the emotions? 

Dear Snow,

That doesn't sound silly at all! I've been doing very weird things to cope with the grief. Mainly I have a friend who lost his father on the other side of the world suddenly due to covid and (as I told him) listening to his story in a very odd way makes me feel better, because at least we had time to say goodbye. I find as me and my brother are having to delve very deep into the family business, throwing myself into work helps a lot. Therapy would be something I want to do, did you just go and see your GP? Or is it a private thing?

I know how you feel..I'm 25 at the moment and as I said before it was always an if. Now it's a when it's difficult to have the conversations about what he will miss as it makes him so sad it breaks my heart. Wishing all the love in the world to you and your family

Thanks for responding Jamel, that's true that we have time to say goodbye, and I suppose it gives our dad's a chance to make peace with whatever business they've got unfinished. 
Unfortunately I'm having a difficult time with concentrating at work and I'm not getting things done as quickly as I should, but luckily my manager is very nice. I'm a social worker for adults and keep coming across clients with cancer which really sucks as it's a reminder of what's happening in my own life. 

I've booked in with a therapist privately, you probably could go through a GP, but I think there might be waiting lists. I don't know whether McMillan do a counselling service? 

In the past when I've been going through something difficult I've found a tv series or a book series to distract myself. Is that something that you would find that helpful?

Wishing you and your family peace ️