Hello I lost my wonderful mum 2 weeks ago to gall bladder cancer. And I'm finding to hard to come to terms with it.  They say it gets easier but doesn't. I sit and think things and then I have a good cry. I feel guilty if I carry on. But I know mum would want me too. She won't want me to keep crying. It's just surreal at the moment  we have the worst to come with the funeral. When we do say our final good byes..

Micacat I am so sorry you lost your Mum. I understand when you say it doesn't get easier. I found the first 2 weeks I managed to get everything done regarding official paperwork etc like it wasn't for my Mum, it was shock I think and I was numb. Now 2 months on and the reality is starting to reveal itself in all its horrible brutal ways. I miss her so much my heart aches in ways I never thought possible. I think it gets worse for a long time before the it even starts to feel less brutal and I am certainly not anywhere near that stage. I also know my Mum would want me to continue. Our Mums were brave wonderful women so we must honour this and we must continue for us and THEM. I feel its important to cry if thats what we need to do, bottling it up inside won't help. We will probably find in time we do actually cry a bit less and a bit less, there will also be times we cry or feel emotional but I do believe in time the crying must get less than what we are crying now. Its such early days, 2 weeks for you and 2 months for me. You will never say your final goodbye to your Mum because you will love her all your life, you will remember her all your life and you will think/talk/share memories of your Mum.....its never goodbye.

Jane

Micacat I am so sorry you lost your Mum. I understand when you say it doesn't get easier. I found the first 2 weeks I managed to get everything done regarding official paperwork etc like it wasn't for my Mum, it was shock I think and I was numb. Now 2 months on and the reality is starting to reveal itself in all its horrible brutal ways. I miss her so much my heart aches in ways I never thought possible. I think it gets worse for a long time before the it even starts to feel less brutal and I am certainly not anywhere near that stage. I also know my Mum would want me to continue. Our Mums were brave wonderful women so we must honour this and we must continue for us and THEM. I feel its important to cry if thats what we need to do, bottling it up inside won't help. We will probably find in time we do actually cry a bit less and a bit less, there will also be times we cry or feel emotional but I do believe in time the crying must get less than what we are crying now. Its such early days, 2 weeks for you and 2 months for me. You will never say your final goodbye to your Mum because you will love her all your life, you will remember her all your life and you will think/talk/share memories of your Mum.....its never goodbye.

Jane