Hello I lost my wonderful mum 2 weeks ago to gall bladder cancer. And I'm finding to hard to come to terms with it.  They say it gets easier but doesn't. I sit and think things and then I have a good cry. I feel guilty if I carry on. But I know mum would want me too. She won't want me to keep crying. It's just surreal at the moment  we have the worst to come with the funeral. When we do say our final good byes..

No words of wisdom but just wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss. Sending love and best wishes. Xx

My mum wrote blogs about her struggle with cancer before her passing. If anyone would like to read of her experiences please do! 
www.nursingtimes.net/.../

Susara I am so really really sorry you have lost your amazing Mum. There are no words I can say to make you feel better or take your pain away. Yes you are too young to be without your Mum. I lost my Mum in May and I am 47, I remind myself daily when I don't know how to continue with my pain how very blessed and lucky I am to have had my Mum in my life for 47 years and my Mum got to live to 86, but honestly I am devastated because no matter what age someone leaves you if that someone is your world then the pain is overwhelming. I also had the most close relationship with my Mum too, hold onto this because death can't break that bond between you and everything you shared including the love which will continue all your life. Take each hour by hour right now because you only lost your Mum two days ago, reach out to your support network and we are here for you too. I will read your Mum's blogs. I just wanted to say how terribly sorry and sad I was to read your post this morning. I hate Sundays, Sunday was the last day and night I spent with my Mum in hospital before she passed away. Take care of yourself. 

Jane

Micacat I am so sorry you lost your Mum. I understand when you say it doesn't get easier. I found the first 2 weeks I managed to get everything done regarding official paperwork etc like it wasn't for my Mum, it was shock I think and I was numb. Now 2 months on and the reality is starting to reveal itself in all its horrible brutal ways. I miss her so much my heart aches in ways I never thought possible. I think it gets worse for a long time before the it even starts to feel less brutal and I am certainly not anywhere near that stage. I also know my Mum would want me to continue. Our Mums were brave wonderful women so we must honour this and we must continue for us and THEM. I feel its important to cry if thats what we need to do, bottling it up inside won't help. We will probably find in time we do actually cry a bit less and a bit less, there will also be times we cry or feel emotional but I do believe in time the crying must get less than what we are crying now. Its such early days, 2 weeks for you and 2 months for me. You will never say your final goodbye to your Mum because you will love her all your life, you will remember her all your life and you will think/talk/share memories of your Mum.....its never goodbye.

Jane

Hello Jane,

thank you for your response it means a lot. I think the only thing that really helps is knowing others are going through the same thing. Thank you for your kind words. I am so very sorry to hear about your mother, there is nothing like a mothers love and therefore nothing like a mothers loss. I really hope we both find peace, I'm sure we will. I know our mothers wanted us to be happy!