Hello and may I say how sorry I am for your loss.  I and many others on this forum know exactly how you feel, as we have also lost loved ones to cancer.  I lost my mum to this disease many years ago.  You are still in the very early stages of your grief, it has only been 2 months.  I suspect you are still in shock.  It will take you quite a while to process what has happened.  If you feel that you need some grief counselling, your GP can arrange this for you.  I have been told by folks that have had this type of counselling after suffering a bereavement that it really does help.  It can not bring your Dad back, but just being able to speak to someone about what you are going through might help you.  I wish I could tell you that there is a short cut on this journey, but unfortunately there isn't..........you will go through a whole range of emotions, but what I can tell you is that eventually you will come to a place of acceptance........you won't 'get over' the loss of your Father........the reality is that we never truly recover from losing those we love........but you will get through it and that terrible, awful pain you are feeling will ease.  Wishing you all the best, Violet, x

Hello and may I say how sorry I am for your loss.  I and many others on this forum know exactly how you feel, as we have also lost loved ones to cancer.  I lost my mum to this disease many years ago.  You are still in the very early stages of your grief, it has only been 2 months.  I suspect you are still in shock.  It will take you quite a while to process what has happened.  If you feel that you need some grief counselling, your GP can arrange this for you.  I have been told by folks that have had this type of counselling after suffering a bereavement that it really does help.  It can not bring your Dad back, but just being able to speak to someone about what you are going through might help you.  I wish I could tell you that there is a short cut on this journey, but unfortunately there isn't..........you will go through a whole range of emotions, but what I can tell you is that eventually you will come to a place of acceptance........you won't 'get over' the loss of your Father........the reality is that we never truly recover from losing those we love........but you will get through it and that terrible, awful pain you are feeling will ease.  Wishing you all the best, Violet, x