Hey all

I just wanted to say I've found this forum such a help in what has been an incredibly difficult time with my mum passing away quite suddenly after a short diagnosis of cancer in march.

While some days I am finding a little bit easier than others, I'm finding the Christmas period really difficult. It will be the first one in my 30 years of being on the planet, without her. 

The biggest thing I am finding difficult is just not being able to understand other people. Everything they say is wrong and I find myself just not replying. We have decided to go away to a different part of the country to just not do the same thing as we usually do as we would find that difficult but I am often asked 'are you excited about your trip' and 'what a lovely trip, I'm sure you will have a wonderful time'. Sorry, my mum passed away and you're treating this I'm going on a holiday? I just wanted t see if anyone else has experienced this at all? I just feel like I am constantly withdrawing from people as they just don't get it and is just making me feel so isolated which just then makes me feel like I miss my mum even more :(

If anyone has any advice, I'd be so grateful. x