Hi, I'm so sorry you feel like this, and I definitely do relate to how you're feeling. My husband has had cancer for 4 years and I've always seemed to cope up until 4 months ago when he relapsed. 

The grief I felt was horrific, and yes even though he was still here. I was looking at the Marie Curie website and it mentioned "anticipatory grief" which is what I believe I felt. It's a real feeling. And it's horrible. 

I actually emailed the Samaritans one night and it helped immensely. Because I too was feeling so lonely with it and I couldn't cope with those feelings of loneliness and grief. 

You are not alone.

Hi, I'm so sorry you feel like this, and I definitely do relate to how you're feeling. My husband has had cancer for 4 years and I've always seemed to cope up until 4 months ago when he relapsed. 

The grief I felt was horrific, and yes even though he was still here. I was looking at the Marie Curie website and it mentioned "anticipatory grief" which is what I believe I felt. It's a real feeling. And it's horrible. 

I actually emailed the Samaritans one night and it helped immensely. Because I too was feeling so lonely with it and I couldn't cope with those feelings of loneliness and grief. 

You are not alone.