My husband died of pancreatic cancer

My husband was always healthy he looked after me we were always together he got a tummy infection in December gone 2018 gave him antibiotics they asked him to go back in January for a scan on his belly they phoned that afternoon said doctor wants to see us so we went to be told he as a mass and we had to go for a ct scan we thought it was a ulcer or something two weeks later we had the ct scan but my husband wasn't well he was in pain I begged them to give him something but they said no they haven't got results yet that week I took him to hospital with his pain plus he looked yellow that's when they gave us the news it had also spread to his liver , but that wasn't giving him pain his bile duct was blocked because of the pain from that and where they left him so long he hadn't ate for weeks, it was just us waiting so after two weeks in hospital I stayed with him laid at the end of his bed I brought him home didn't want him in a hospice so this is where he died on the 17th March 2018 my first Christmas without him in 30 years he was 55 

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    Hi Dolly,

    Welcome to our forum, although I'm sorry for the reasom that has brought you here. It certainly sounds as if your husband had a rough time at the end and this must have been very difficult for you, as well as him.

    After losing him at only 55, I can fully understand just how hard Christmas must have been for you this year.

    Do you have any family or friends who can support you?

    I am thinking of you and praying for you to find the strength to get through this.Remember that we are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • My daughter my only child died of pancreatic cancer stage 4 spread to liver died this September 2018 after being diagnosed in June...I blame the GPS and not happy with doctors treatment etc I'm lost my best friend ..they really need to find out what causes this and early detection is needed 

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    Hi Maur,

    I am so sorry to hear of your daughter's passing. How tragic to have your only daughter taken away from you so cruelly. Three months is no time to get your head around such a diagnoosis. I am one of five and I lost a brother to an accident when he was only 28, newly married and, with his whole life to look forward to. Sadly, he only survived on life support for 3 weeks.

    We all miss him sorely, but it broke my mum's heart and, she was never the same after that. I have lost both parents and many relatives and close friends to cancer. I have had 2 bouts of breast cancer myself in the past 9 years, so I know the disease from both sides of the fence. Treatment has come a long way since mum had it 21 years ago, but it still has a long way to go.

    I expect that Christmas was especially hard for you this year. I am thinking of you and hoping that you find the strength to carry on.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hi 

    I am so sorry to hear your sad news. My husband was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer that had spread to his liver.He has recently passed away on 21st may 2020 just 7 weeks after diagnosis. This is a cruel disease a aggressive cancer that is difficult to treat. We as a family are really struggling to live without him. He deteriorated so quickly and his journey wasent without its challenges.He was just 56 years old.

     

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    Hi Pam,

    Welcome to our forum. I am so sorry to hear the sad news about your husband's passing. It is lways a shock when someone so young is taken so quickly. We lost my father-in-law just 5 days after diagnosis last year. We felt that we were only just coming to terms with his diagnosis when he was gone.

    It is still all very new to you and, I can understand how you are finding it so hard to live without him. What ages are your family and, do you have family or friends to support you at this difficult time?

    I am hoping and praying for better days for you all.

    Kind regards,
    Jolamine xx

  • I am so sorry for your loss, it as never got easier for me and its been over two years now, I can't move on from this and I'm not the sort of person to find someone else, I cry myself to sleep and cry because I've woke up, it's never hard and the longer he's gone the more I want to be with him, so I hope and pray your a stronger person than me, but will find that some people will try and help you thr but it don't help me I just want to be left alone I talk to him every day here, and started having a telephone medium when I can afford her Susan bond she very good I know it's Tommy talking to her because I know his words he would use, she also said the more I talk to him the stronger he will get, you should try her but you have to book in advance don't think she got any more appointments til July August she that good and it helps me just for a little bit god bless you xx

  • thanks I have got family and friends but most of the time I shut myself away, we were so very close, I could have my house full every day but he's not there so it don't help so I prefer to be on my own, otherwise I just fake feeling better and it's exusting good bless

  • Hi Jolamine

    I have 3 sons matthew 29, Lewis 24 and Rob 21. They are all still at home and are struggling with losing their dad.

    I have a few friends that I meet up with. I go walking with them.  I try and make the effort even though I may not always feel like it.

    Kind Regards

    Pam

  • Hi Dolly

    I am so sorry of your loss and how much you are strugg, I find when I wake up the hardest because the reality it's me that he has passed away and he isn't coming back. 

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    Hi Dolly,

    I am so sorry to hear that you still feel like this two years on. It is always difficult  to lose a loved one, but at such a young age and so soon after diagnosis, this must have filled you with a lot of anger as well as heartbreak.

    Unfortunately, friends and family stop trying to support you, if you keep pushing them away. You may have to fake feeling better to start with, but eventually you'll find new interests which will start to enhance your life again. If you continue to hide away on your own, with just yourself for company, you are likely to continue to struggle and get more depressed.

    I truly feel for you and, hope that you continue to make the effort with family and friends. You will always hold your husband in your heart. You will never forget him, but you will eventually come to terms with your loss. It takes some people longer than others to come to terms with grief and, I do hope that you will eventually find that you can accept what has happened.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx