Trying to carry on but really struggling. Christmas and all it entails doesn't help. Daughter broke her ankle so can't do Christmas day so down to me. Everyone wants a memorable one as probable be Don's last. Just want a bit of understanding from husband as to how I feel and a hug or two but get nothing back from him at all. It's all about him which I understand how he must feel.. Sometimes feel that I have just been a convenience for him all our married life. Sorry about the moan just feeling sorry for myself