I need some support please. I am so stressed about everything that I have been hitting my arm. First was slaps, now I hit it, because I am so frustrated and angry that it has to come out. I need help please
Thank you for making me smile by offering to cook and send me a turkey, I may well take you up on that if its not sorted on Monday lol. You can also roast a ham joint for me too please while you're at it haha.
I hope you are feeling a little brighter the last couple of days. My meeting went okay and I did speak to my Union and they were very helpful. Work haven't followed the policy, and a union rep will come with me to the next meeting on January 5th, and I'll aim to go back to work after that. You may see from my post to Jules that I'm struggling with my husband's arseyness lately and so is my son. He gets so angry so quickly. I know it's the tumour but it's hard. Really upsets Will my son. And that breaks my heart.
Well hope you're weekend is a good one and take heaps of care, Mandy xx
Hi Mandy. Glad you have got some advice and the meeting went well for you. I feel so sorry for you and your son having to put up with your husbands temper. I was lucky it didn't affect my wife like that. As you said it's not him but his illness that's doing it. However upsetting his tantrums are remember it's his illness. As for doing gam for you that's no problem. Would you like it glazing in honey and brown sugar and cloves. Or would you prefer mustard ha ha. I've just finished putting the Christmas lights up outside. Was doing really well until one of the neighbours chirped up you better do them right or Ali will be haunting you. An off the cuff comment but really got to me inside. I just smiled and carried on. But got a real urge to throw him round the cul de sac for some reason. Had a tough few days at the beginning of the week kept thinking back to last year when we were on a short honeymoon and what we were doing. I gave myself a good talking to and got my head back on track I'm determined to at least try to enjoy the festive perio. Taking all the grandkids for breakfast with Santa next Saturday morning. And I am going to make sure he knows I've been a really good boy this year so I get a present at Christmas he he. Oh well that's enough rambling hope you have a good week this week and your cooker gets sorted tomorrow. It will save me cooking two turkeys ha ha. Take care and stay strong X X
Am thinking honey glaze and brown sugar sounds awesome lol. Much better than the cheating ham I've ordered from Tesco . As for you wanting to throw him round the cul de sac, I'm amazed you didn't. What a silly remark. Hopefully will live in your neighbours life as a "why the hell did I say that...... " moment. I must say I am very impressed and proud of you for putting up lights outside, I really am. And I'm sure your wife would have been very proud too, irrespective of how they look.
My husband, Chris, got readmitted to hospital this morning. He had severe head pain, nausea, temp, rigours. They thought might be neutropenic sepsis but bloods thankfully say otherwise. It might be due to him reducing his steroids. Either way, he can't shift the headache whatever he takes. Not good at all. I did feel guilty that I didn't get him there soon enough but hopefully it isn't an infection. See what they say tomorrow.
Well cooker day tomorrow! I'll let you know if it all goes to plan ........ I hope so or else you're going to be a very busy boy, for which Santa may even give you two presents. haha.
Will be keeping my fingers crossed that the hospital can stabilise your husband's pain and find out what is going on. Am pleased that you have managed to get the support and help you and the family deserve from MacMillan. It really does help to know there is someone 'out there' who can understand your needs.
Maybe should have 'everything crossed' so that cooker delivery also covered. Deano will have a lot on his plate cooking double otherwise!! (though he made it sound so appetising he would be a great back up ha ha).
Had kids and grandkids yesterday for pre Christmas get together and the lads went and collected a Christmas tree for me. They were under instructions to keep it lower than 6ft so we did not have to lop the top off to get it in!! Well, they managed that but I have never had such a 'wide bushy tree' (they got their own back as its almost as wide as it is tall!!). Needless to say much fun and laughter as they struggled to get it set up (had also invested in a proper water holdering stand for it this year) but got there just prior to serving buffet meal! We all then began the task of decorating it. I have just a few new bits to do later today plus a couple of special 'grandson' money holding baubles to add ready for their visit on Boxing Day. I will put the choc decorations on at the last minute otherwise they may accidentally fall off the tree.
To take care of yourself and hope there is good news about Chris soon. Hugs, Jules x
Hi Mandy. Sorry to hear about your husband. I hope he is ok. Ali had a few bouts where her headache couldn't be controlled. A couple of occasions it was just a cold that built excess pressure in her head. After a few days it calmed down. Hope it's something simple like that. As for my lights when it went dark I turned them on and was pleasantly surprised. They looked really good. I took a photo and stuck it on Facebook and got lots of nice comments so that made me feel good a little. Hope your cooker is all set up and working by now. Take care of yourself Mrs X x
Hi Jules. Glad your tree is all sorted and had a good time decorating it etc. It's nice to have the family round it's the only thing that keeps me sane at minute I think. But then again my kids would probably say I've never been sane ha ha. Glad your ok Jules hope you have a good week take care x
You are so right; I am lucky to have my family close by and so enjoy seeing them. Am going to eldest grandson's (7) school Carol Concert on Friday. My 'new normal' still seems strange at times despite 11months having passed since I lost hubby but he did so love this time of year and we are determined to enjoy it in his memory as this is definitely what he would have wanted. Take care. Jules
Chris still in hospital. They thought at first was neutropenic sepsis but not now thank goodness. Still got a temp and still dizzy and head pressure and pain. But it is upsetting me that he is so "arsey" at times, even the tone of his voice has changed. Will, my son, is hugely affected by his changes and that Is so hard to see. I'll try and talk to my husband again about this.
I am so pleased the lights look good, and you got lots of nice comments on Facebook. Not even thought about decs yet.
Now to the cooker saga ....... Once upon a time, my cooker door fell off and I thought can't be hard to get another can it, how wrong was I. Well latest episode is cooker did in fact arrive!! Cooker got off lorry, old cooker came out and looked sad and deserted on pavement. Alas the two delivery men decided it would not go through my kitchen door and so off it went again, and sad and deserted cooker happily returned to his old spot. Door width 67cm (apparently), new cooker with knobs or something I dunno, 68cm (apparently). And I have cupboards in way etc. I naturally collapsed in floor in heap as is my way lately lol. So Monday afternoon spent searching yet again for cooker number 4. So my cooker gap is 1000 and I would like 1000 cooker but I have gone for 900 so will have 5cm on either side. It is a cracking cooker, they are getting more expensive each time but I am concerned about the gap. It sits in a chimney breast. Chris said it can get sorted when we do the kitchen next and then changed it to when I do the kitchen next... So Deano, you may well be cooking my turkey and the yummy ham (my favourite) lol. New cooker I hope comes Monday. But some woman phoned up to get me to take measurements and I need to phone her back. If she says no way Jose I shall scream I shall keep you posted and give you plenty of time to cook. You did say you were good I believe......
Would love to see pic of lights if poss? Hope I made you smile with my cooker saga, lol. Take heaps of care xx
Sorry to read that Chris is still hospitalized and do hope it will not be too long before they can find the source of his pain/dizziness and get it under control. It's so very frustrating for you and Will and I am sure your daughter too, to see him struggling like this and I am sure the 'inner Chris' would not want to be aggressive towards anyone let alone you and his children. Cancer and the pain it causes changes those we love and I cannot begin to imagine how frightened he will be, not just for himself but also for you all as he probably cannot control his emotions right now. Sending virtual hugs and a listening ear.
As to your cooker saga, you must be at your wits end with it all and are doing so well to cope with this on top of Chris's illness. Measurements are a pain in the a... but as long as it comes, can be connected and it works, remember that the gaps can be solved whenever and you will still be able to cook - sorry as it sounds like you really would prefer mastercook deano to take the strain ha ha. I have gaps either side of my cooker (was informed necessary for safety! (though not yet a fitted kitchen lol)) and now use them for 'tray' storage. Having said that my kitchen is still living in the 70's and mismatched (a project for the future I hope when I can get my head into gear to make changes).
Christmas decorations are done,mainly because I need to keep things as normal as possible for all the family but definitely missed hubby's input and seems somewhat strange enjoying the effect alone but its the way forward these days.
Hope you get better news when you visit Chris today. Take good care. Jules x
Hi Mandy sorry to hear Cgris is still in hospital. Hope things are calming down if not fully recovered from pain. Bet you at your wits end. This horrible disease has such an affect on everyone concerned. Patient carers family etc. Think that's the worse part of it. As for your cooker story I found it very amusing even got a chuckle out of me. Really hope it gets sorted for you on this attempt. It seems nothing goes right when your down on your luck. My front door kick decided not to let me take my key out this morning this was at five thirty when I set off to work. After a lot of cursing pushing and pulling I managed to get it out. Door is only 3 month old so waiting for a call back from the door fitters. Anyway the gam is on standbys I have bought double honey and a large bag of brown sugar just in case he he. If I knew how to get photos on here u could see the lights. If not they are in on Facebook. Can always give u my details . Take care and keep your chin up X
