Hello,
9 days ago my dad got admitted to hosoital through a visit to a and e after they discovered a 'lesion' from the initial CT scan they did. We were told yesterday it is a grade 4 astrocytoma otherwise known as glioblastoma multiform. They have given a 12 - 18 month prognosis.
I am 28 and he is 61 and previously fit as a fiddle. We have always been incredibly close and our little family (my brother and I and my mum and dad) have had the luckiest of lives together. I am struggling to deal with the idea that two weeks ago he was my lovely, strong, healthy dad. I know that in some way we are lucky to be able to spend this time with him and make many more memories but right not my grief at the prospect of losing him is stopping me from doing that.
He is so worried about us all and I want to reassure him that we will be OK and he doesn't need to worry....he is so brave and still cracking jokes but he is also extremely scared about cognitive decline and losing his dignity. He could never lose his dignity in my eyes.
I am also so worried about my mum....it just kills me that they had so many plans for travel and adventure during their retirement which can't happen now.
I will miss him so very very much.It just feels like the floor has been ripped out from underneath our family....I know it is fruitless and juvenile but I can't help but question why!!!! I just want everything to go back to how it was.....I feel like I'm in a nightmare.
Thank you anyone for reading. It helps to write.