Hi,
Hubby has found out that the radiotherapy hasn't worked and that the tumour in his rectum is still too large to remove (no margin around it). In addition, he now has a tumour in his liver so has been diagnosed as Stage 4!.
He has been prescribed 4 cycles of 3 weekly IV Chemo, with 14 days of Chemo tablets to see if that helps shrink the bowel tumour. However, this time round the Chemo is kicking his butt...the IV Chemo was awful, he was violently sick throughout which has resulted in the Consultant prescribing an 'A Grade' anti-sickness drug for future sessions. He is struggling to sleep, anything cold to touch gives him electric shocks due to the Chemo having Platinum in it, severe diarroah and constant nausea...!
All the above has meant that we're living with the most miserable, short-tempered man and the atmosphere in the house is horrendous! :( We have a 15 year old daughter that locks herself in her room most of the time to avoid arguments, and a 3 year old son that obviously doesn't understand and has now gone backwards with his toilet training :(
I, myself, work 3 days a week as well as having to do all the shopping, cleaning etc and am at my wits end...my perfect little family has been destroyed and my perfect, kind & very calm husband has vanished,
Not sure how we're supposed to 'keep our chins up' or 'stay strong' when going home is dreaded so much (even my 3 yr old says he doesn't want to go home after a day at nursery!!)
My husband always said that I had the biggest heart of anyone he knew, but now i'm not so sure...how can I feel angry/upset with the man I love when he's so ill - it's like i'm losing myself :confused:
