Things are getting harder every day

I spent the day with my mum today she has not been good at all, it's been very hard for me to see she was criying earlier, she is very down always in pain and I think she just wants to go now. She kept apologising to me today and I kept saying don't be silly. Me and her husband put her to bed, and  not long after she was screaming out that she's dying. Today has been the hardest day by far and I feel awful I want her to hold out for my sisters wedding this weekend but I also want the pain to be taken away from her it's so terrifyingbseeingbher suffer and I can do nothing. I don't know how much worse it can get??  Trying to stay strong but its very hard. Im living a nightmare.  Has anyone else come across all this near to the end? 

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  • Hello again Sara, I was sorry to read you had been having a hard day and understand when you say it is a living nightmare, I remember feeling the same.  Would it be possible to get the Macmillan nurses in more reguarly to check on your Mum now?  She shouldn't have to be in pain and it is important that she gets the correct pain relief when she needs it.  It is heartbreaking watching someone we love suffer unyet knowing there is nothing you can do to stop it; I know you want to stay strong for your Mum, but staying strong continously when you are breaking inside is hard, so do be kind to yourself and let yourself cry whenever you need.  I wish there was something more constructive I could say to help you but perhaps you can get a little comfort in knowing that many people on here understand and are thinking of you.  Let me know how you are.  Hope x

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  • Hello again Sara, I was sorry to read you had been having a hard day and understand when you say it is a living nightmare, I remember feeling the same.  Would it be possible to get the Macmillan nurses in more reguarly to check on your Mum now?  She shouldn't have to be in pain and it is important that she gets the correct pain relief when she needs it.  It is heartbreaking watching someone we love suffer unyet knowing there is nothing you can do to stop it; I know you want to stay strong for your Mum, but staying strong continously when you are breaking inside is hard, so do be kind to yourself and let yourself cry whenever you need.  I wish there was something more constructive I could say to help you but perhaps you can get a little comfort in knowing that many people on here understand and are thinking of you.  Let me know how you are.  Hope x

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